Rough times
I hate seeing a big, strong man with tears running down his face, into his beard, trying like hell to keep me from seeing them....
That *woman* is going to tear Andy apart before this divorce is settled, and it is killing me.
Any woman who uses guilt to try to keep a man... using his kids against him... Using her low self esteem to whine, and make him feel like he is the bad guy...
Then there's me, just trying to make his life a tiny bit better, and help him stay on his feet... Knowing I have no right to tell him what to do, feeling caught in the middle... He tells me he is sorry that he got me in the middle of all this... I tell him I am right where I want to be, and that once we get through this, we are going to be strong, and happy, and his life will be everything he always dreamed it could be... But we have to get through this first...
Here is the song that, right now, makes me think of Andy, every time I hear it...
To hear a bit of it, go HERE...
Bring It On
(Trace Adkins)
Troubled soul, all alone
I can feel your sadness
The hearache and the madness
Are hittin' hard tonight
You're cornered up and hunkered down
The walls are tall around you
For anyone to break through
It's gonna be a fight
(Chorus)
Bring it on, bring it on
All your heartache and frustration
You've been done wrong too long
And I'm strong enough to change it
Maybe in time, we'll turn water into wine
Maybe love is what we'll find
Bring it on
It's not too late to fly away
And I won't try to stop you
So you do what you've got to
I'll understand
But if you need a place to land
A haven, safe and certain
Someone to share your burden
Then take my hand
(Chorus 2x)
Bring it on, bring it on
All your heartache and frustration
You've been done wrong too long
And I'm {wo}man enough to change it
Maybe in time, we'll turn water into wine
Maybe love is what we'll find
Bring it on
Yeah, bring it on baby
Baby, bring it on
Bring it on
Yeah, bring it on
That *woman* is going to tear Andy apart before this divorce is settled, and it is killing me.
Any woman who uses guilt to try to keep a man... using his kids against him... Using her low self esteem to whine, and make him feel like he is the bad guy...
Then there's me, just trying to make his life a tiny bit better, and help him stay on his feet... Knowing I have no right to tell him what to do, feeling caught in the middle... He tells me he is sorry that he got me in the middle of all this... I tell him I am right where I want to be, and that once we get through this, we are going to be strong, and happy, and his life will be everything he always dreamed it could be... But we have to get through this first...
Here is the song that, right now, makes me think of Andy, every time I hear it...
To hear a bit of it, go HERE...
Bring It On
(Trace Adkins)
Troubled soul, all alone
I can feel your sadness
The hearache and the madness
Are hittin' hard tonight
You're cornered up and hunkered down
The walls are tall around you
For anyone to break through
It's gonna be a fight
(Chorus)
Bring it on, bring it on
All your heartache and frustration
You've been done wrong too long
And I'm strong enough to change it
Maybe in time, we'll turn water into wine
Maybe love is what we'll find
Bring it on
It's not too late to fly away
And I won't try to stop you
So you do what you've got to
I'll understand
But if you need a place to land
A haven, safe and certain
Someone to share your burden
Then take my hand
(Chorus 2x)
Bring it on, bring it on
All your heartache and frustration
You've been done wrong too long
And I'm {wo}man enough to change it
Maybe in time, we'll turn water into wine
Maybe love is what we'll find
Bring it on
Yeah, bring it on baby
Baby, bring it on
Bring it on
Yeah, bring it on
4 Comments:
To play the devil's advocate....
my dear ol' pappy used to say, "It's a mighty poor board what don't have two sides."
So many dynamics go into all that. Sure glad mine is in the past
I realize that she thinks she is in the right...
SHe also thought it was a good idea to tie her twins at about age 3 to a tree in the yard so she wouldn't have to watch them...
Also thought that when Andy got a ticket, and he gave her the money to pay it for him because he couldn't get time off from the truck, it would be more fun to use that money on a mall shopping spree and just tell him it had been taken care of... He lost his CDL for a time over that one... These and many more common knowledge stories about her are why I didn't like her even before Andy and I got to know each other... Yes, she thinks all their problems are because he is too hard on the kids (he wants them to do chores... she doesn't) and that he's gone too much on the truck (they have 4 kids and she refuses to work... what's he supposed to pay bills with if he doesn't work like that??) She just has a lot of issues...She picks up his check every week, and gives him about $20 a week, and she pays some of the bills... unless she'd rather go shopping... His family has had to help him when she didn't pay his insurance, or other very important bills... OK, I'll quit ranting now...
Not to be rude or a pain in the ass.....No one can make us a victim unless we allow them that power. I allowed that to happen once. It sucked.
She has spent so many years telling him everything is his fault and making him feel guilty that he doesn't see the kids enough that he grew to believe it... He never had anyone to talk to about it... He now has been opening up more to other people, and everyone is telling him that her ideas are wrong... He is seeing things finally for the way they are... She has begun to lose her control over him...
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